October 23, 2012

One

A year since you called me by name and led me home. It’s been a journey so momentous that I find it difficult to believe that a year has already passed us by. Same time last year, I remember following you around the dais wondering if everyone could hear my heart’s furious tempo. It was just sinking in that I was yours from that moment. It still is. Sometimes I look at you, when you’re busy composing scathing mails on your BB and wonder how it is that you managed to find me. You with your temper, and your integrity and that bone-deep decency. You make me believe in things I’d long given up on. You make me believe in myself. I admit, the tears are something out of my control, but many a time, it is because you make me feel so much. I have stepped in love so many times…but never completely fallen. And now, when we discuss how it is to be in love, in those sleepy conversations we have at night, I realize that there has never been anything like this…


I stood by your bed
and watched the sheets rise gently.
I knew what slant of light
would make you turn over.
It was then I felt
the highways slide out of my hands.
I remembered the old men
in the west side cafe,
dealing dominoes like magical charms.
It was then I knew,
like a woman looking backward,
I could not leave you,
or find anyone I loved more.

(San Antonio, Naomi Shihab Nye)

As expressive as I am, I don’t know if I’ve told you this, you make me laugh. Not just when we’re together, but also when I think of all the silly things you do. It drives me giddy when your smile is aimed at me. Sometimes all you have to do is give me that look of yours, when I say something extremely stupid, and I find laughter bubble up in me. Your temper and my silliness, make for crazy days. And there are nights when, inspite of what we promised each other, we refuse to make amends and just let silence build a wall. But looking back, this year has been special. Like you say, we’re one of those couples who’re taking it slow. But I know for sure, we’re gonna end up like the Good Knight couple, quibbling over the silliest of things. I am looking forward to that.

Thank you, for you. You take my world, and sprinkle fairy dust on it, not the kind that turns to rust on sunrise, but the kind that makes everything it touches glow. I cannot say much of the coming years, except that every moment I spend with you becomes worthwhile. And now we have something that is much more precious than all the laughter and love we have known. Thank you for giving me this priceless treasure.

When the nightingales have sung their songs
And the summer has bid goodbye
When the paths are scattered with golden leaves
When the sun casts slivers of light, through trees

I have your whispers safe with me,
those dreams you talk of in the dark
For, do you know how much it means to me,
That you can open up your heart.

When there is darkness all around
You can count on me to stay, within your arms
Or better, we can curl up, as one
In blankets we've woven with stories and stars.

I have you, and you have me,
To complete these stories,
The ones we create in the dark.
And that is what I wish to celebrate, each day
That is why; this is simply not a date.

2 comments:

  1. This is the most beautiful, most honest thing I've read in a longgggg time! Congrats you two! :)

    Cheers....To many more years together!

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  2. Thanks June! Where have you been? :)

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